First proper results weigh in of 2014. Please please let this set the tone for the rest of the year... 3.75lbs off. Say WHAAAAAAT?
Truth be told, I had a bit of a dodgy week. Those Ferrero Rocher were not going to eat themselves. Those onion rings needed to be polished off. But I suppose I did make a lot of good choices too. And I bodypumped and swam. But let's not forget - the night before last week's weigh in did indeed feature chips and possibly some kebab so that may well have had some bearing.
Well, whatever the reasons, it's January the 9th and I weigh 12 stone 5.5lbs! Just 3/4 of a pound more and I'll be back to my Christmas Day weight. So that's this weeks challenge right there - 1lb. That one pound would take me into fresh fat, and I think we all know how much I love fresh fat!
Today I'm muching on some of last night's frittatta leftovers before spinning at lunchtime, I'll have some cold meat and a clementine this afternoon and for dinner I'm going to give Sarah from EssBeeVee's butternut squash lasagne a bash.
Also, delighted you like the bridesmaid dresses. I only feel joy when I look at them!
2014 Starting Weight: 12 stone 9.25lbs
Current Weight: 12 stone 5.5lbs
Weight Loss This Week: 3.75lb
Total 2014 Weight Loss: 3.75lbs
I'm on a lifelong mission to ditch the lard. Stones away from my heaviest, I'm closing in on my pre-pregnancy weight. Next up, my wedding weight! Onwards!
Thursday, 9 January 2014
Wednesday, 8 January 2014
I do... want to enjoy every moment
I'm not going to to count down the weeks to the wedding. Definitely not. I cannot handle that kind of information.
I know it's coming and it's going to be here before we know it.Which is fan-bloody-tastic! I was walking to work this morning and was just having a wee happy moment to myself about how flippin awesome I feel right now. But there ain't no ying without yang, no cake without calories. I'm also a little bit.... panicky. Is that the right way to describe how I'm feeling? I feel a quickening of my breath and my heart definitely beats a little faster when I think about all the organisation that lies ahead. Well, not really ahead - it's kinda NOW!
Okay, I'm not really panicking but I am just very aware of what needs to be done, never mind the things I've not even thought about! But I want to enjoy it too. Yesterday, I paid the deposit for the portaloos. It doesn't get much more enjoyable than that! Joking aside, that job is the kind of job that makes me feel a bit more on top of things. You know,agreeing delivery dates and knowing that things are going to actually turn up on time.
There's no getting away from it, I am thinking marriage thoughts A LOT and so of course they are going to spill over onto this here blog. Yes, okay - they already have! So let's get right on with it and let me tell you all about the bridesmaid dresses!
My original brief was that I thought I'd like something electric/bright blue, knee length and kinda floaty. Does this look any of these to you? Yeah, total u-turn. I love electric blue and we had almost decided on a dress which I happened upon on the Coast website. Both my lovely (and very slim) bridesmaids tried it on and liked it. But then, I saw this baby. My dress has a bit of a 1950's feel to it and I do enjoy a sticky out skirt - so this pretty much jumped out of the screen at me.
Coast feels like a bit of a bridesmaid cliche but they do have some lovely dresses and since my two girls live in different cities - it's makes finding a dress and trying it on, that bit easier. So I really liked this dress and it was in the sale. Great - half price (I would not be paying full price - well outta budget). But then... what if we couldn't get it in the right sizes. Rather than miss out I decided just to buy them online, get them posted out to the girls, and we could return them if need be.
The web pic makes it look kinda coral pink, but it's actually bright pink - which you can see a bit better in the close up. Maybe not my first choice of colour but the dress is so lovely and look at that detailing! The netting makes the skirt stick right out and when I saw Bridesmaid 1 in it, she looked gorgeous. Bridesmaid 2 says she feels a bit self conscious as it's strapless and she is between sizes and will have to get the size 12 taken in. But in the pics she sent me she looks fantastic.
This dress has more pow than the first. And I want something that packs a bit of punch and doesn't just melt into the background. I also want to get another thing ticked off the list - and ticked it is!
I know it's coming and it's going to be here before we know it.Which is fan-bloody-tastic! I was walking to work this morning and was just having a wee happy moment to myself about how flippin awesome I feel right now. But there ain't no ying without yang, no cake without calories. I'm also a little bit.... panicky. Is that the right way to describe how I'm feeling? I feel a quickening of my breath and my heart definitely beats a little faster when I think about all the organisation that lies ahead. Well, not really ahead - it's kinda NOW!
Okay, I'm not really panicking but I am just very aware of what needs to be done, never mind the things I've not even thought about! But I want to enjoy it too. Yesterday, I paid the deposit for the portaloos. It doesn't get much more enjoyable than that! Joking aside, that job is the kind of job that makes me feel a bit more on top of things. You know,agreeing delivery dates and knowing that things are going to actually turn up on time.
There's no getting away from it, I am thinking marriage thoughts A LOT and so of course they are going to spill over onto this here blog. Yes, okay - they already have! So let's get right on with it and let me tell you all about the bridesmaid dresses!
My original brief was that I thought I'd like something electric/bright blue, knee length and kinda floaty. Does this look any of these to you? Yeah, total u-turn. I love electric blue and we had almost decided on a dress which I happened upon on the Coast website. Both my lovely (and very slim) bridesmaids tried it on and liked it. But then, I saw this baby. My dress has a bit of a 1950's feel to it and I do enjoy a sticky out skirt - so this pretty much jumped out of the screen at me.
Coast feels like a bit of a bridesmaid cliche but they do have some lovely dresses and since my two girls live in different cities - it's makes finding a dress and trying it on, that bit easier. So I really liked this dress and it was in the sale. Great - half price (I would not be paying full price - well outta budget). But then... what if we couldn't get it in the right sizes. Rather than miss out I decided just to buy them online, get them posted out to the girls, and we could return them if need be.
The web pic makes it look kinda coral pink, but it's actually bright pink - which you can see a bit better in the close up. Maybe not my first choice of colour but the dress is so lovely and look at that detailing! The netting makes the skirt stick right out and when I saw Bridesmaid 1 in it, she looked gorgeous. Bridesmaid 2 says she feels a bit self conscious as it's strapless and she is between sizes and will have to get the size 12 taken in. But in the pics she sent me she looks fantastic.
This dress has more pow than the first. And I want something that packs a bit of punch and doesn't just melt into the background. I also want to get another thing ticked off the list - and ticked it is!
Tuesday, 7 January 2014
Festive flab
Well hi there! How is everyone?! Did you have a super, smashing great Christmas time and New Year?
I had a lovely lovely time (especially in the new living room). After weighing myself on Christmas morning I then had a right good time stuffing my wee face with scrambled eggs made with double cream and then a mahoosive Christmas dinner, followed by sticky toffee pudding (with extra toffee sauce, of course!). Delicious and divine and I loved it!
TB and I hosted Christmas Day with both sets of parents and TB's Granny and Grandad. It went really well and the food was all cooked beautifully - even if I do say so myself. And the sticky toffee pudding - Oh My GOD. Once relative calm was restored on Boxing day, I got right back on with healthy eating.... until about 5pm when I started eating again and had a load of ice cream with... left over toffee sauce!
That's the thing about hosting Christmas, you are the ones that are left with so much food that the only option is to eat yourself out of the pile of opened boxes of chocs, left over nuts and half bags of crisps. It also doesn't help that I made chocolate and pistachio fudge and macadamia nut brittle. Good one!
Through most of the next day I actually felt guilty about not getting right back on with healthy eating and also the fact I had sore ears and I didn't want to face the horrible wind for a run that would undo some of the damage. Then I decided I was being an idiot and I enjoyed the over indulgence. It's Christmas for crying out loud! So I four days of food, drink and general lazing around. Wonderful! Then on the Sunday I got my arse in gear, popped on my new running gloves and headband, and trotted off for a wee 5k which I completed at a speedy pace. Well done me!
After that we were soon off to London for three nights to enjoy Hogmanay with friends and while there was a LOT of drinking, there wasn't the same amount of face stuffing. We got home on the 3rd and on the 4th, me and the scales reacquainted ourselves. 4.5lbs on. 9 days of gay abandon, 4.5lbs on. That's not too bad.
Well, yes - it is a lot of weight to put on in just over a week but as total festive flab goes, it could have been much MUCH worse. That took me to 12 stone 9.25lbs. I'd then like to tell you how I got right back on the straight and narrow, shunning all temptations... but that would be a lie. I started off well but a quick bout of tonsillitis, and lack of determination saw the next few days pass by in a vaguely healthy/one too many chocs/oops there goes a bag of onion rings sort of way.
But yesterday was Monday. That was back to reality day. That was back to work, gym and making soup day. I love a routine. I love a schedule. Normality has resumed. I don't need to think about anything anymore. I just need to do what I was doing before. Bodypump yesterday was a struggle but I went. Last night I made soup. Tonight I shall swim and before I know it, the weeks will have passed - and the wedding will be here!
I had a lovely lovely time (especially in the new living room). After weighing myself on Christmas morning I then had a right good time stuffing my wee face with scrambled eggs made with double cream and then a mahoosive Christmas dinner, followed by sticky toffee pudding (with extra toffee sauce, of course!). Delicious and divine and I loved it!
TB and I hosted Christmas Day with both sets of parents and TB's Granny and Grandad. It went really well and the food was all cooked beautifully - even if I do say so myself. And the sticky toffee pudding - Oh My GOD. Once relative calm was restored on Boxing day, I got right back on with healthy eating.... until about 5pm when I started eating again and had a load of ice cream with... left over toffee sauce!
That's the thing about hosting Christmas, you are the ones that are left with so much food that the only option is to eat yourself out of the pile of opened boxes of chocs, left over nuts and half bags of crisps. It also doesn't help that I made chocolate and pistachio fudge and macadamia nut brittle. Good one!
Through most of the next day I actually felt guilty about not getting right back on with healthy eating and also the fact I had sore ears and I didn't want to face the horrible wind for a run that would undo some of the damage. Then I decided I was being an idiot and I enjoyed the over indulgence. It's Christmas for crying out loud! So I four days of food, drink and general lazing around. Wonderful! Then on the Sunday I got my arse in gear, popped on my new running gloves and headband, and trotted off for a wee 5k which I completed at a speedy pace. Well done me!
After that we were soon off to London for three nights to enjoy Hogmanay with friends and while there was a LOT of drinking, there wasn't the same amount of face stuffing. We got home on the 3rd and on the 4th, me and the scales reacquainted ourselves. 4.5lbs on. 9 days of gay abandon, 4.5lbs on. That's not too bad.
Well, yes - it is a lot of weight to put on in just over a week but as total festive flab goes, it could have been much MUCH worse. That took me to 12 stone 9.25lbs. I'd then like to tell you how I got right back on the straight and narrow, shunning all temptations... but that would be a lie. I started off well but a quick bout of tonsillitis, and lack of determination saw the next few days pass by in a vaguely healthy/one too many chocs/oops there goes a bag of onion rings sort of way.
But yesterday was Monday. That was back to reality day. That was back to work, gym and making soup day. I love a routine. I love a schedule. Normality has resumed. I don't need to think about anything anymore. I just need to do what I was doing before. Bodypump yesterday was a struggle but I went. Last night I made soup. Tonight I shall swim and before I know it, the weeks will have passed - and the wedding will be here!
Wednesday, 25 December 2013
Festive weigh in
Holy crap. Today is definitely a day for using the lord's name - 1.5lbs off.
Say WHAT?! Best Christmas present I could have ever given myself... 12 stone 4.75lbs.
Merry Christmas, I'm off to gorge on Lindt balls!
Starting Weight: 14 stone 0.25lbs
Current Weight: 12 stone 4.75lbs
Weight Loss This Week: 1.5lb
Total 2013 Weight Loss: 1stone 9.5lbs
Say WHAT?! Best Christmas present I could have ever given myself... 12 stone 4.75lbs.
Merry Christmas, I'm off to gorge on Lindt balls!
Starting Weight: 14 stone 0.25lbs
Current Weight: 12 stone 4.75lbs
Weight Loss This Week: 1.5lb
Total 2013 Weight Loss: 1stone 9.5lbs
Monday, 23 December 2013
Living the dream
It's safe to say 2013 has been a pretty incredible year for me.
Everything I've ever wanted is coming true. I live in a beautiful, big house with three cats and I am in love with and am loved by the most incredible person I've ever met - who I'm marrying in five months time. I am so lucky.
And to top it all off, I've managed to kick the arse out the weight loss charade and am the lightest I can ever remember being for around 15 years. This is all the stuff dreams are made of! I can actually say with some certainty, I am living the dream, MY dream.
I'm excited for 2014. I just want to keep the good feelings going; in love, in weight loss, in work - everything really! The wedding is a big focus and I know the first six months of the year are going to be busy busy. I'm ready for it though and I'm ready to be married to TB, to start the next chapter of our life together.
I'm also ready to get into the 11 stones! I'm a bit nervous about the festive feasting that could derail things but I also feel a kind of calm about it all. I'm weighing in on Christmas Day and I would love to see a loss. The odd chocolate coin has snuck past my lips but I've determined to delay the eating with abandon as long as possible. Boxing day.... well, who knows, I might even go for a run. I know! What the chuff has happened to me?!
Lots of festive love to you all and here's to a Christmas Day filled with food! xxxx
Everything I've ever wanted is coming true. I live in a beautiful, big house with three cats and I am in love with and am loved by the most incredible person I've ever met - who I'm marrying in five months time. I am so lucky.
And to top it all off, I've managed to kick the arse out the weight loss charade and am the lightest I can ever remember being for around 15 years. This is all the stuff dreams are made of! I can actually say with some certainty, I am living the dream, MY dream.
I'm excited for 2014. I just want to keep the good feelings going; in love, in weight loss, in work - everything really! The wedding is a big focus and I know the first six months of the year are going to be busy busy. I'm ready for it though and I'm ready to be married to TB, to start the next chapter of our life together.
I'm also ready to get into the 11 stones! I'm a bit nervous about the festive feasting that could derail things but I also feel a kind of calm about it all. I'm weighing in on Christmas Day and I would love to see a loss. The odd chocolate coin has snuck past my lips but I've determined to delay the eating with abandon as long as possible. Boxing day.... well, who knows, I might even go for a run. I know! What the chuff has happened to me?!
Lots of festive love to you all and here's to a Christmas Day filled with food! xxxx
Thursday, 19 December 2013
Weigh in
Half a pound off. I feel that's fair.
I had a big loss last week and I have definitely struggled a little over the past few days. So when I saw 12 stone 6.25lbs flash up this morning, I was pleased there was a loss at all! Sometimes when I lose a good few pounds in one week I don't really believe it till the following week - so to see 12 stone 6 was still brilliant. Feels great!
What also felt great, but also a little embarrassing, was the size 14 coast dress I wore to a black tie do on Tuesday (where I had a little wine and ate half the pudding). I wore this dress when I was a bridesmaid in October 2011. I originally bought a size 16 but soon realised the 14 was the better fit, which felt so good. A size 14 dress from Coast? Get in! But it now looks like the 14 is too big! It's strapless and kept slipping down and I had to do that thing where you are continually pulling it up. Classy. But who cares! I was flipping delighted!
Reflected buy the midweek wine and ice cream consumption, the festive munchies are definitely starting to creep in and when hanging lindt balls from the tree (oh yeah, we like to go all out with our edible decs!) it would have been so easy to scoff a couple but I really want to give these last six days before weigh in, and indeed Christmas Day, a big push. I would bloody love to see 12 stone 5.75lbs - or less, next week. It would be a Christmas miracle!
In the last week I've been to spinning, run 5 miles and been to bodypump. This week the plan is spinning today, a 5 mile run tomorrow and on Christmas Eve too. Even if I was to stay the same next week, I'll have not have gone bonkers and started stuffing my face - kicking off a possible fortnight of festive face filling.
Starting Weight: 14 stone 0.25lbs
Current Weight: 12 stone 6.25lbs
Weight Loss This Week: 0.5lb
Total 2013 Weight Loss: 1stone 8lbs
I had a big loss last week and I have definitely struggled a little over the past few days. So when I saw 12 stone 6.25lbs flash up this morning, I was pleased there was a loss at all! Sometimes when I lose a good few pounds in one week I don't really believe it till the following week - so to see 12 stone 6 was still brilliant. Feels great!
What also felt great, but also a little embarrassing, was the size 14 coast dress I wore to a black tie do on Tuesday (where I had a little wine and ate half the pudding). I wore this dress when I was a bridesmaid in October 2011. I originally bought a size 16 but soon realised the 14 was the better fit, which felt so good. A size 14 dress from Coast? Get in! But it now looks like the 14 is too big! It's strapless and kept slipping down and I had to do that thing where you are continually pulling it up. Classy. But who cares! I was flipping delighted!
Reflected buy the midweek wine and ice cream consumption, the festive munchies are definitely starting to creep in and when hanging lindt balls from the tree (oh yeah, we like to go all out with our edible decs!) it would have been so easy to scoff a couple but I really want to give these last six days before weigh in, and indeed Christmas Day, a big push. I would bloody love to see 12 stone 5.75lbs - or less, next week. It would be a Christmas miracle!
In the last week I've been to spinning, run 5 miles and been to bodypump. This week the plan is spinning today, a 5 mile run tomorrow and on Christmas Eve too. Even if I was to stay the same next week, I'll have not have gone bonkers and started stuffing my face - kicking off a possible fortnight of festive face filling.
Starting Weight: 14 stone 0.25lbs
Current Weight: 12 stone 6.25lbs
Weight Loss This Week: 0.5lb
Total 2013 Weight Loss: 1stone 8lbs
Tuesday, 17 December 2013
Before and after
Another busy weekend - and finally, we have finished the living room! Horay!
There are a few things we still need to do (paint and attach the mantelpiece, varnish the window frame, get a mirror up above the mantelpiece as well as pics on the walls and finish placing ornaments and stacking books) but we are moved in and I love it!
You can see how it looked when we went to view it and now that it's been brought ever so slightly up to date! I can't quite seem to get my pic taken from as far back an angle as the top pic, but you get the idea.
I feel the pics don't quite reflect the hours and hours of work this one room took. You don't see the two undercoats, the hands and knees grinding of paint stance, the sanding of every inch of paintwork (and there was a lot of paintwork - check the skirtings!). The window and fire are also new. Let's not even being to think about how much money we're spending on the house overall.
It's been another good week diet and exercise wise... spinning on Thursday, 8km run on Friday and bodypump yesterday. However, there have been a couple of slips that have snuck in. Firstly, I made a couple of traybakes on Sunday for TB's charity coffee morning at work and I ended up eating a slice of 'sticky stuff' (basically my very naughty version of Rice Krispy Squares) as well as picking at tablet and a few maltesers. Ooops.
Last night I sat on the couch all night and also ate some crisps - a double hit of no movement and extra calories. Tsk tsk. I've got to get my head screwed on straight as I've got a black tie dinner tonight where I'll need to turn down the wine as much as possible and flat out refuse the pudding. Weigh in looms!
Peridot asked me what I'm doing foodwise. I'm not one for counting points, calories or... well, anything really. I'm just trying to avoid anything unhealthy or processed. A typical day is:
B: Melon and yogurt or porridge with honey
S: clementine or two
L: Homemade soup i.e. spicy pumpkin and chicken or butternut squash with chilli (no bread)
S: clementine or two - if anything
D: chilli and sweet potato or healthy fish pie, low fat choc yogurt
Other than that I might snack on some cold meat and a couple of boiled sweets. That's about it really. I'm also really trying to watch the portions. My meals are all made from scratch and I do try and make them as low fat as possible but that's usually me just adapting them to have more veg/less oil etc. Hope this helps!
I'm missing my usual Tuesday night swim tonight so I'm off for a stomp around the streets in my lunch-hour.
There are a few things we still need to do (paint and attach the mantelpiece, varnish the window frame, get a mirror up above the mantelpiece as well as pics on the walls and finish placing ornaments and stacking books) but we are moved in and I love it!
You can see how it looked when we went to view it and now that it's been brought ever so slightly up to date! I can't quite seem to get my pic taken from as far back an angle as the top pic, but you get the idea.
I feel the pics don't quite reflect the hours and hours of work this one room took. You don't see the two undercoats, the hands and knees grinding of paint stance, the sanding of every inch of paintwork (and there was a lot of paintwork - check the skirtings!). The window and fire are also new. Let's not even being to think about how much money we're spending on the house overall.
It's been another good week diet and exercise wise... spinning on Thursday, 8km run on Friday and bodypump yesterday. However, there have been a couple of slips that have snuck in. Firstly, I made a couple of traybakes on Sunday for TB's charity coffee morning at work and I ended up eating a slice of 'sticky stuff' (basically my very naughty version of Rice Krispy Squares) as well as picking at tablet and a few maltesers. Ooops.
Last night I sat on the couch all night and also ate some crisps - a double hit of no movement and extra calories. Tsk tsk. I've got to get my head screwed on straight as I've got a black tie dinner tonight where I'll need to turn down the wine as much as possible and flat out refuse the pudding. Weigh in looms!
Peridot asked me what I'm doing foodwise. I'm not one for counting points, calories or... well, anything really. I'm just trying to avoid anything unhealthy or processed. A typical day is:
B: Melon and yogurt or porridge with honey
S: clementine or two
L: Homemade soup i.e. spicy pumpkin and chicken or butternut squash with chilli (no bread)
S: clementine or two - if anything
D: chilli and sweet potato or healthy fish pie, low fat choc yogurt
Other than that I might snack on some cold meat and a couple of boiled sweets. That's about it really. I'm also really trying to watch the portions. My meals are all made from scratch and I do try and make them as low fat as possible but that's usually me just adapting them to have more veg/less oil etc. Hope this helps!
I'm missing my usual Tuesday night swim tonight so I'm off for a stomp around the streets in my lunch-hour.
Thursday, 12 December 2013
Weigh in
Last week's half pound was most definitely a red herring... because this morning I'm 2.75lbs lighter! Boooo YA!
I can't actually believe it. Almost three pounds off. That means I saw 12stone 6.75lbs on the scales. What?! WHAT?! I honestly have no idea when I last saw that number. I don't know if I have ever actually seen it. I was about 11 stone at school and then I really had very little to do with the scales until they had jumped up quite a bit past 12 stone 6. So exciting!
I have worked for it though - a 7km run and an 8km run as well as swimming (which I dragged my mum to when she was visiting). And the eating has been stellar. STELLAR!
Speaking of my Mum, she is doing really well too and we've agreed that we're going to keep the focus for as long as possible - and our last weigh in before Christmas will be... Christmas Day. Why not? TB and I are hosting Christmas and I see no reason to dive head first into a selection box before then. If I eat and drink like a merry old thing for the best part of a week untold damage could be done and with the wedding inching every closer, I don't have time to gain and re-lose half a stone. I can't believe I am about to say this... 11stones, I'm coming to getcha!
Starting Weight: 14 stone 0.25lbs
Current Weight: 12 stone 6.75lbs
Weight Loss This Week: 2.75lb
Total 2013 Weight Loss: 1stone 7.5lbs
Am I smaller or the boys bigger? ;)
I can't actually believe it. Almost three pounds off. That means I saw 12stone 6.75lbs on the scales. What?! WHAT?! I honestly have no idea when I last saw that number. I don't know if I have ever actually seen it. I was about 11 stone at school and then I really had very little to do with the scales until they had jumped up quite a bit past 12 stone 6. So exciting!
I have worked for it though - a 7km run and an 8km run as well as swimming (which I dragged my mum to when she was visiting). And the eating has been stellar. STELLAR!
Speaking of my Mum, she is doing really well too and we've agreed that we're going to keep the focus for as long as possible - and our last weigh in before Christmas will be... Christmas Day. Why not? TB and I are hosting Christmas and I see no reason to dive head first into a selection box before then. If I eat and drink like a merry old thing for the best part of a week untold damage could be done and with the wedding inching every closer, I don't have time to gain and re-lose half a stone. I can't believe I am about to say this... 11stones, I'm coming to getcha!
Starting Weight: 14 stone 0.25lbs
Current Weight: 12 stone 6.75lbs
Weight Loss This Week: 2.75lb
Total 2013 Weight Loss: 1stone 7.5lbs
Am I smaller or the boys bigger? ;)
Wednesday, 11 December 2013
I don't care - BELIEVE ME
My objective on Saturday night was to look smokin' hot. I felt great and I got some lovely compliments so I'm going to take that as goal met.
As I knew I would, I saw the married one. And as I knew it would be, it was totally fine. We blethered away and all was good. I also chatted away to two of my female friends who are going to be part of this same team that they are all (TB too) involved in next year.
As soon as I saw them they both made reference to the fact TB is now part of that close knit team (and by default me too) and that there is history with me and the married one. For example one of the girls used to be invovled with someone who was part of the team before. She said : "I'm glad I'm not the one things will be awkward for anymore!". Then later on the other girl said to me: "It'll be all be fine." I replied: "I know. I'm fine about it all. I just think it's quite interesting (i.e. married one's decision to involve TB)".
At the time I didn't think anything more about it but then the next day it dawned on me that they think there is some sort of issue with the married one and I. There's not. Okay, I won't lie. I've seen him pawing over other girls and I don't like it. I have no right to be irritated by it and it's not that I wish I was them. I just don't like it. My ego doesn't like it. The married one knows that. I don't like that he knows that but well, he does.
But this is all just... nothing. None of it matters. I don't care about anyone except TB. The married one can flirt and come on to the world and it's wife - I might feel a little jealous but he means nothing to me. My concern is that TB gets wind (thanks to chat from others) that there is some sort of problem/tension with TMO (the married one) and wonders what it's all about. I do find it interesting that TMO has created a situation where TB and I will see him a lot more between now and the summer - and will be living on top of each other for two weeks in the summer. But who cares - it's TB and me. We're a team and I just want to make sure that others are aware of that withouth me trying to look like I'm protesting too much.
As I knew I would, I saw the married one. And as I knew it would be, it was totally fine. We blethered away and all was good. I also chatted away to two of my female friends who are going to be part of this same team that they are all (TB too) involved in next year.
As soon as I saw them they both made reference to the fact TB is now part of that close knit team (and by default me too) and that there is history with me and the married one. For example one of the girls used to be invovled with someone who was part of the team before. She said : "I'm glad I'm not the one things will be awkward for anymore!". Then later on the other girl said to me: "It'll be all be fine." I replied: "I know. I'm fine about it all. I just think it's quite interesting (i.e. married one's decision to involve TB)".
At the time I didn't think anything more about it but then the next day it dawned on me that they think there is some sort of issue with the married one and I. There's not. Okay, I won't lie. I've seen him pawing over other girls and I don't like it. I have no right to be irritated by it and it's not that I wish I was them. I just don't like it. My ego doesn't like it. The married one knows that. I don't like that he knows that but well, he does.
But this is all just... nothing. None of it matters. I don't care about anyone except TB. The married one can flirt and come on to the world and it's wife - I might feel a little jealous but he means nothing to me. My concern is that TB gets wind (thanks to chat from others) that there is some sort of problem/tension with TMO (the married one) and wonders what it's all about. I do find it interesting that TMO has created a situation where TB and I will see him a lot more between now and the summer - and will be living on top of each other for two weeks in the summer. But who cares - it's TB and me. We're a team and I just want to make sure that others are aware of that withouth me trying to look like I'm protesting too much.
Monday, 9 December 2013
Weigh in
Bit late with the weigh in report.... half a pound on. Hmmmm.
Not so happy about that, obviously. Despite my boozy Saturday night I really don't feel it's just but well, that's how it is. This all happened on Thursday - four day ago now. So it's old news and I've pretty much forgotten about it. Since then I have been like a laser - could not be more focused.
Okay, that's not quite true. Food wise, I have been amazing. Drink wise, I've had two heavy nights on the sauce. That's not great but I with all the challenges facing me (everyone eating chips and cheese halfway through the night and hangover recovery for example) I feel like I was a bloody champion.
On Friday night at my work Christmas meal, I shunned the bread roll with starter and gave away my pudding. I couldn't have been more resolute.
And earlier in the day I ran 7.64km! That's my furthest yet! I won't lie. I was pretty chuffed with myself. So as you can tell I am on a mission to lose that half pound this week - and some more. If I could lose a pound I'd be happy. That would be great.
Starting Weight: 14 stone 0.25lbs
Current Weight: 12 stone 9.5lbs
Weight Loss This Week: + 0.5lb
Total 2013 Weight Loss: 1stone 4.75lbs
Not so happy about that, obviously. Despite my boozy Saturday night I really don't feel it's just but well, that's how it is. This all happened on Thursday - four day ago now. So it's old news and I've pretty much forgotten about it. Since then I have been like a laser - could not be more focused.
Okay, that's not quite true. Food wise, I have been amazing. Drink wise, I've had two heavy nights on the sauce. That's not great but I with all the challenges facing me (everyone eating chips and cheese halfway through the night and hangover recovery for example) I feel like I was a bloody champion.
On Friday night at my work Christmas meal, I shunned the bread roll with starter and gave away my pudding. I couldn't have been more resolute.
And earlier in the day I ran 7.64km! That's my furthest yet! I won't lie. I was pretty chuffed with myself. So as you can tell I am on a mission to lose that half pound this week - and some more. If I could lose a pound I'd be happy. That would be great.
Starting Weight: 14 stone 0.25lbs
Current Weight: 12 stone 9.5lbs
Weight Loss This Week: + 0.5lb
Total 2013 Weight Loss: 1stone 4.75lbs
Wednesday, 4 December 2013
Chubby fingers crossed
Weigh day again tomorrow. It seems to have come round again so quickly.
I've done all my usual workouts and so I feel confident that I worked hard on that front. In fact, I forgot to mention just how hard I worked on my Friday run. 7.5km without stopping! And at a good pace too! I really am surprising myself with the old running malarkey. The first km or so and the last km always seem to the be the hardest but I feel quite determined on each run I go - so there is no half measures.I know I'm working hard at spinning as last week I was almost sick. Nice.
The only thing that has let me down was the Saturday night boozing. There is the booze I drank and there is also the effect it will have had on my body. What that was, who knows. Tomorrow is a really early weigh in as I'm away on a training course so at 5.30 IN THE AM (ugh) I will be hopping on the scales. A loss. That's all I want - just a loss.
I've done all my usual workouts and so I feel confident that I worked hard on that front. In fact, I forgot to mention just how hard I worked on my Friday run. 7.5km without stopping! And at a good pace too! I really am surprising myself with the old running malarkey. The first km or so and the last km always seem to the be the hardest but I feel quite determined on each run I go - so there is no half measures.I know I'm working hard at spinning as last week I was almost sick. Nice.
The only thing that has let me down was the Saturday night boozing. There is the booze I drank and there is also the effect it will have had on my body. What that was, who knows. Tomorrow is a really early weigh in as I'm away on a training course so at 5.30 IN THE AM (ugh) I will be hopping on the scales. A loss. That's all I want - just a loss.
Tuesday, 3 December 2013
Stay classy
Saturday night started off so well. Sushi and drinks with friends. However, with not that much sushi and a lot of drink, it all kinda went downhill very quickly.
I met TB and a couple of his friends when I arrived home on the train, when I was pretty tipsy. I don't really remember much of the night after that. I do know I drank even more. I remember arguing with TB, I know I left the club on my own and then I know I had an argument with a guy outside and I remember crying. Not cool.
Most of it is a blur and I have no idea who the person I was arguing with or what about. I feel sick when I think about it. What the hell was going on. I am so embarrassed. I've not been that drunk for a long time and I know I was not being a nice drunk.
Suffice to say Sunday was pretty much a total write off and even today I don't feel quite myself. I think it's more the dread or 'the paras' as my friends and I used to call it. You know that feeling in the pit of your stomach - the one where it feels like you're about to get found out for doing something really bad.
This Friday is my work Christmas night out and I am determined not to drink too much. I'm too horrified by my behaviour on Saturday. Shudder. I am too old for this crap.
TB and I also have a last minute night out coming up. This Saturday is a big night out for a huge group of our friends that takes place annually. We weren't going to go but TB decided he fancied it so we're going. I'm looking forward to it but I don't see these friends for months at a time, and I wanted to be thinner! Why is that always the first and overriding thought that goes with every occasion? 'How fat was I last time I saw these friends?' 'What will I wear?' 'Will anyone think I look thinner?'
There is also going to be someone from my past there, the married one. I've seen him plenty of times over the past year so it's no big deal. What I'm not sure about is he and TB are going to be spending more time together in the run up to a big event we're all going to next summer. In fact a few of them are all going out for dinner before the night out on Saturday. I'm not sure how I feel about this and I'm pretty sure the married one know that I'm probably not totally okay with it. I don't really know what else to say about it apart from I'll be doing two things on Saturday. 1. Not drinking too much and 2. Looking smokin hot.
I met TB and a couple of his friends when I arrived home on the train, when I was pretty tipsy. I don't really remember much of the night after that. I do know I drank even more. I remember arguing with TB, I know I left the club on my own and then I know I had an argument with a guy outside and I remember crying. Not cool.
Most of it is a blur and I have no idea who the person I was arguing with or what about. I feel sick when I think about it. What the hell was going on. I am so embarrassed. I've not been that drunk for a long time and I know I was not being a nice drunk.
Suffice to say Sunday was pretty much a total write off and even today I don't feel quite myself. I think it's more the dread or 'the paras' as my friends and I used to call it. You know that feeling in the pit of your stomach - the one where it feels like you're about to get found out for doing something really bad.
This Friday is my work Christmas night out and I am determined not to drink too much. I'm too horrified by my behaviour on Saturday. Shudder. I am too old for this crap.
TB and I also have a last minute night out coming up. This Saturday is a big night out for a huge group of our friends that takes place annually. We weren't going to go but TB decided he fancied it so we're going. I'm looking forward to it but I don't see these friends for months at a time, and I wanted to be thinner! Why is that always the first and overriding thought that goes with every occasion? 'How fat was I last time I saw these friends?' 'What will I wear?' 'Will anyone think I look thinner?'
There is also going to be someone from my past there, the married one. I've seen him plenty of times over the past year so it's no big deal. What I'm not sure about is he and TB are going to be spending more time together in the run up to a big event we're all going to next summer. In fact a few of them are all going out for dinner before the night out on Saturday. I'm not sure how I feel about this and I'm pretty sure the married one know that I'm probably not totally okay with it. I don't really know what else to say about it apart from I'll be doing two things on Saturday. 1. Not drinking too much and 2. Looking smokin hot.
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