Tuesday, 14 June 2016

Weigh in

3lbs off! Yippee! Very happy with that. A lovely start.

That means five weeks to go and 6.5lbs to lose. This week won't be quite as stellar... I drank A LOT on Saturday and thanks to a crappy cold, no gym yesterday. Thanks to an all day conference on Thursday, no spinning. So it's all down to the diet and the walking.

Yesterday was super good and today looks to be very similar.

Start weight:        13stone 9.25
Current weight:   13 stone 6.25
Total loss:            3lbs
Weeks left:          5
Pounds left:         6.5

Wednesday, 8 June 2016


Today is a struggle.

A struggle to walk as I went to kettelercise on Monday night! Haha - wee bluff style joke there from me.

Yup, I've been to a class at the gym. No wonder I can barely walk; I cannot remember the last time I went to an actual class. The past few days have been very painful but the class itself was fine - apart from the star jumps and the like. Truth is my pelvic floor is not so hot! This is one of the reasons I've had to can running for now. For the first 30 seconds of running, things are not good at all. Anyway - that's a whole other post.

Healthy living wise, things are going VERY well. And I feel so much better. Sure, I'm not really any thinner but it's all a mind game, isn't it. Meals have been on point and the bingeing is well and truly over. I keep thinking of six weeks time and how amazing I will feel if I keep this up.

Tomorrow I'm going to spinning for the fist time in about 9 months.

Here's a few recent pics. New glasses and blonder for me. And Lady P who was 1 just a few weeks ago! I have a one year old! WTF? She is hilarious.  And yes, we love a good knit.

 PS) thanks for the comments girls. So lovely to hear from you all x

Saturday, 4 June 2016

Line in the sand

I feel better already.

I spoke to TB last night about how I was feeling. He had no idea. Well, why would he, I suppose. Told him how down and out of control I felt.

I told him six weeks away needed to see a serious change. He was totally supportive. Well, of course he was. He would support me if I said I was going to gain 3 stone on purpose. However, he also made some observations....

Specifically, I go to a lot of effort to make a healthy meal and then snack on wee bits of chocolate and sweeties here and there. So true. If I really want to make these next six weeks count then that has to stop.

I weighed myself this morning. 13 stone 9.25lbs. I was 13 stone 7.5 on Monday. Almost 2 lbs in 5 days. That's impressive, no wait... I mean, that's horrific!

So it's game on. Six weeks to lose 9.5lbs. Six weeks to get into the 12 stones.

My main thing I want to get in the groove with, as a starter, is planning. I can't remember when or why I stopped planning all meals for the week. I'm out tonight but tomorrow the pen and paper is coming out and the list is being made. It feels so good to write that.

Breakfast today was a slice of brown bread and marmalade (no butter) and a watermelon heavy nutriblast. Lunch will be chicken tikka salad (seriously, lidl chicken tikka is the unreal).

Also feels nice to be blogging. Saved my sanity I don't know how many times. 

Friday, 3 June 2016

Out of control

I'm struggling. Big time.

For about a week now, every day has been the day I'm getting my shit together. Every day I end up eating crap. A lot of crap. I'm binging. It's been a long time since I've done this for more than a day at a time.

I just cannot get it together. The thought of getting through a whole day is monumental.

Size and weight wise things are really not that bad. I weighed myself on Sunday and I'm 13stone 7.5. Well, I was. God know what damage I am doing every day I fill my face with crap.

I wanted to be 12 stone 11 by July 16th, when it's summer camp time. I've just counted.... that's 6 weeks tomorrow. Big sighs...

If I am going to even be close to that (I would bite your hand off to be in the 12 stones) then I need to take action now. This might sound totally bonkers but I really don't know where to start. What the actual.... I feel like I have never eaten healthily for a day in my life.

And I'm pissed off. I am pissing myself off with this behaviour.