I'm struggling. Big time.
For about a week now, every day has been the day I'm getting my shit together. Every day I end up eating crap. A lot of crap. I'm binging. It's been a long time since I've done this for more than a day at a time.
I just cannot get it together. The thought of getting through a whole day is monumental.
Size and weight wise things are really not that bad. I weighed myself on Sunday and I'm 13stone 7.5. Well, I was. God know what damage I am doing every day I fill my face with crap.
I wanted to be 12 stone 11 by July 16th, when it's summer camp time. I've just counted.... that's 6 weeks tomorrow. Big sighs...
If I am going to even be close to that (I would bite your hand off to be in the 12 stones) then I need to take action now. This might sound totally bonkers but I really don't know where to start. What the actual.... I feel like I have never eaten healthily for a day in my life.
And I'm pissed off. I am pissing myself off with this behaviour.