We video skyped last night and it was much better. More relaxed, chatty and with more laughing. We said goodnight and then he popped up on the chat.
T: Sorry if i've been a bit off with you the last day or two, dunno whats wrong with me
M: how come you didn't say this when we were chatting?
M: I did notice you've been a bit... well - maybe not quite your usual self. I know I've been a bit funny too - which probably didn' help things.
T: Well I'm looking forward to seeing you on Thursday
M: Good. Me too. x
T: ok, I'll head away just now. night night doll xxx
M: night night mister. x
I knew there was a something up. I'm still not sure what but he has been a bit off and on whatever level I've picked up on that which has made me feel insecure. I'm trying to not think about it as me chewing over the reasons why he might be a bit off is not going to help. And to be honest I think I don't there there are any real reasons.
This is one of the problems of a long distance relationship. Whenever we want to have contact we have to speak but sometimes we don't want to talk but just be together. We can't just have a cuddle. This is the exact time when we don't really want talk about anything but we want to be with each other. If you live close by you can just pop over to sort things out by making up physically- and I don't mean sex, but just being together, cuddling and that intimacy that only comes with a relationship. I haven't got that option. He is only a few hours away and I will see him on Thursday - he's not halfway round the world so I need to stop moaning.