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The new year healthy push started on Wednesday of last week. It ended on Saturday. Lame.

I don't know why I can't seem to get my brain into gear. Even the three days that I actually stuck to the Slimming World diet were days that I just felt like I was going through the motions, not really feeling it. And to be in the groove I need to be feeling it. You feel me?

Yesterday was an okay day. In fact, apart from around 50grams of green and blacks, a packet of crisps and a slice of cheddar cheese, it was pretty good. However, what set it apart from the other days is that I went out for run. I was really dreading it as I'm not exaggerating when I say that walking up stairs has been tougher than it was a few weeks ago. Who knows why my body was so nice to me but I managed to complete my 5km run in just over 20 seconds longer than the last time I did in November. Thank you body- all 14 stone and 4.5lbs of it!

Yes, okay - there it is, I'm back into that 14 stone range - again. The same 14 stone that I vowed to never let the see the light of day on my scales ever again. I'll come onto that in a moment.

The run was tough (head pounding and chest burning) and there was a lot of coughing for the rest of the evening but it's the first one of 2011 and it's done.  My thighs just above my knees and my bum are pretty sore today and I suspect there will be more of the same tomorrow but tough titty, as out for another run I shall be going.

So here we are again at the very upper limit of where I've been weight wise since I lost the best part of three stone - quite a number of years ago now. Let me be clear about this. I am not happy about it. Not at all and I need to get back into the 13stone bracket and sharpish. Once there I need to make some serious headway in getting towards the 12s. I can do it. I just need to excerpt some self control, will power and freaking dedication. It's a stone and a half, not the moon on a farking stick.

I mentioned before I'm not planning (for the moment) to go back to Slimming World. I'm going to follow the plan but I'm going to weigh in on a weekly basis at home. I'll give it a couple of weeks and if I'm struggling then I'll wobble back to the classes. 

While this might sound like a wobble - it's kinda my one get outta jail free card; I'm not going to weigh in until Friday. The week has been all over the place and I sort of need to wipe the slate clean but if I could do that with a tiny loss... then chocolate all round! Joke!